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190 Lbs.

I weigh 190 pounds now. I went to the doctor yesterday. 30 yrs ago I weighed 113 pounds. I'm 5'9". I looked anorexic. I tried to gain weight into my twenties. Then in my thirties I weighed a nice weight, around 140 or so. then I had two more babies. Then I got a boyfriend that feeds me delicious food all the time. Now I'm fat.

I've never dieted. Not really. I spent most of my life trying to gain weight. I have to figure out how to lose weight now.

I'm going to start with eliminating sugar from my diet except for the three teaspoons I put in my tea. And over time reduce that amount to two or less. Then I'll add more restrictions as needed. I'll let you know how it's going.

Carol

Migraines

I woke up at 5 a.m. with a migraine. I was dreaming about it before I wake up. That happens with the bad ones. I took an Imitrex. It will go away. They used to last 24 hrs. With Imitrex, one or two hrs.

This one was caused by weird hormones and stress.

Carol

Blame

When my new DSL modem wouldn't stay connected I was convinced for the longest time it was my fault. I didn't put the phone filters on correctly, I didn't plug it in right (which is ridiculous, there is only one way to plug it in), I'm a stupid girl that doesn't know anything about computers, etc. Then I decided it was the loose wire in the living room phone outlet. Moved it to the bedroom, same problem. Paid a ton of money to Nerds On Call, it still didn't work. Turns out it was a faulty modem.

Got a new modem yesterday and it's stayed connected ever since.

I need to learn to not take credit for that which is not my fault. Too many years of being blamed for everything by my now ex husband.

But now, Yay!, I have a working new computer with DSL that works. Life is good.

Carol

The Secret

My guy rented the secret thru netflix. He didn't know what it was. We watched a bit of it. He found it redundant and doesn't understand why everyone doesn't already know this stuff. And why they have to keep saying the same thing over and over. I think he's one of those people that knows things instinctively that most of the rest of us have to be taught.

I know it and believe it. I just have to be reminded. Frequently.

Carol

My New Computer

Did I mention I got my new computer? And did I mention that the DSL is only working intermittently? I'm calling AT&T today. I think it's a loose wire in the phone jack.

We had a huge storm Fri. It would have been a huge storm anywhere but in California where it never even rains it was really huge. Trees down, power out, and now my Directtv satelite isn't working. The soonest someone can be here is next Mon. A whole week without tv. Except 3, 10, and 13, fuzzy, with an antenna. At least I can see Medium tonight. And when all the shows are in re-runs because of the writer's strike it will be new to me. At least this week's worth.

Carol

A New Computer

Yay! I finally got my new computer. Now I just need to get the new DSL to work properly so it doesn't cycle off every couple of minutes.

more tomorrow,

carol